okay, so i just got a new dictionary, so now we have a word of the day also...
mugwump: an independent especially in politics... noun... from the Algonquian word for cheif...
so that is pretty cool...
You have put gladness in my heart... Psalm 4:7
God, no matter what hardships in life you go through, he will always give you something to be happy about... Happy people love the Lord... :)
and this is a poem that i made into a song today, and i love it...
Abby's Lullaby
Quietness, here comes Darkness
Dear Angel close your eyes and
Let the bad flow from your mind and
Don't you cry, child close your eyes and
Let God's arms surround you and
Keep you safe, yes keep you safe, till morning comes
Stillness, here come Peacefullness
Dear Angel, dreams will come so
Close your eyes and let them in please
Don't you wake, you are safe
Here inside my arms you lie
Safe until the sun will rise, the sun will rise again
Darkness turns to Lightness
Demons leave and won't return and
i must leave also, but dear Angel
Don't you fear, for God is near
He'll keep you safe inside his arms
Even when I'm dead and gone, he'llkeep you safe when I'm gone
Here I am, up in Heaven
Looking down upon you
Looking out for all you do so
Don't you cry, and when you close your eyes
You'll be here once more with me
Safe for all eternity, yes safe here in Heaven
Here I am, up in Heaven
Looking down upon you,
Looking out for all you do so
Don't you cry, and when you close your eyes
You'll be here once more with me
Safe for all eternity in Heaven, in my arms
Quietness, here comes Darkness
Dear Angel, close your eyes
I love this... i hope y'all do to, tomorrow i'll write more, but i am sleepy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Issues
.:* Sorry i haven't written in two days...
Banish anxiety from your mind, and put away pain from your body... Ecclesiastes 11:10
Okay, so a little different today, i am starting off with the bible verse. In Eccl., King Solomon, who is also the writer of this book, writes about what he sees 'under the sun', and how everything is 'vainity and a chasing of wind.' this is a time when Solomon is having a difficult time in his life trusting that the Lord our God will be there for him. he is talking mainly about a life without God and how unfulfilling it is, and how earthly things can't replace what God has to offer, which lasts forever.
I was told to read this book of the Bible by my friend two or three days ago when i was going through some things... I have an issue, this issue, as i am calling it, started in 11th grade. my mom found out about it and talked to me, and i got better, but a few days ago, this issue reared it's ugly head back into my life... i didn't want to tell my mom, cause i am at college and i don't want her to worry about me, so i turned to bff and she told me that Solomon was going through some issues, and they were recorded in Eccl, and this should help me... this verse was the one that spoke to me the most...
If you have worries ignore them, God will carry your burdens for you... Any pain, God will take that away, if you let him surround you in his love...
As i said previously, i have been having issues the last week... it all started when my roomie got engaged... i hate love, i've never been in it, and as much as i want to be in it, i don't... don't get me wrong, i am happy for her, but something inside me, aka my heart, starts to ache when i see a guy and a girl walking together... i get depressed... me depressed isn't fun to see or watch or be around even... i get happy, then instantaneously sad, and then happy, then sad... i am one bipolar mess... then my issue kicks in... i get mad, i shake from holding back tears i want to cry and then i reach for it, they are right there a drawer opened away, and i reach for them... 1 isn't good enough, so i do another and another, until it stops, the pain fades, but my heart breaks and tears rule me... my friend told me to put them away away so i can't get them so easily... so far so good, i hope... other than that lg...
um oh yes, i am transfering to NCCC because it is cheaper, and i'll be at home, i can get a job in the billions of places that there are and i'll be at home... but i have a fear, a fear that ppl will think i am a failure... my friends support me and so does my family... they say it is a smart move and i just pray that this is what God wants me to do and that it is all in his hands... deep breaths... tomorrow i have to go and get Houghton to send a transcript to NCCC which should be fun!!! yay!!! and i have to talk to my advisor sometime... woot woot! :( but yeah, i gots to keep my head straight and lean on God, he'll get me through...
Dreams Awaken
Through the mist he cometh forth with no age
Bringing with him mem’ries of old, I’ve changed
He awakens my aged heart and my youth regain
With feelings that once again return within his presence
Whence he cometh forth my heart races, burns, and beats
And tears spring from mine eye in rejoicing
I forgot how to breathe
Whence he cometh forth and steals my soul and heart
I breathe no more for fear I dream to sweetly
His kisses soft as the red, red rose he hands me
But as the truth doth hurt the thorns prick me
And I cry out in pain for my heartbreaks
The pieces fall to the ground and shatter once again
The world spins and I’m lost
Through the mist my love didst come bearing the rose
And through that very mist he leaveth me taking my heart
He fades into the mist no more to return
As I stand here the mem’ries I briefly recall with him flee
My mind knows no comprehension of what I felt
My age returns, my heart’s pieces are together once more
And I finally may breathe for he’s gone
Okay, i wrote this a while ago and i love it... it shows how someone can act when the one they truely love is around... they forget their troubles and they remeber and cherish the joyous times... then he leaves or dies and her burdens return, and her world is real again, she can breathe... sweet sweet love, where art thou???
Until next time...*:.
Banish anxiety from your mind, and put away pain from your body... Ecclesiastes 11:10
Okay, so a little different today, i am starting off with the bible verse. In Eccl., King Solomon, who is also the writer of this book, writes about what he sees 'under the sun', and how everything is 'vainity and a chasing of wind.' this is a time when Solomon is having a difficult time in his life trusting that the Lord our God will be there for him. he is talking mainly about a life without God and how unfulfilling it is, and how earthly things can't replace what God has to offer, which lasts forever.
I was told to read this book of the Bible by my friend two or three days ago when i was going through some things... I have an issue, this issue, as i am calling it, started in 11th grade. my mom found out about it and talked to me, and i got better, but a few days ago, this issue reared it's ugly head back into my life... i didn't want to tell my mom, cause i am at college and i don't want her to worry about me, so i turned to bff and she told me that Solomon was going through some issues, and they were recorded in Eccl, and this should help me... this verse was the one that spoke to me the most...
If you have worries ignore them, God will carry your burdens for you... Any pain, God will take that away, if you let him surround you in his love...
As i said previously, i have been having issues the last week... it all started when my roomie got engaged... i hate love, i've never been in it, and as much as i want to be in it, i don't... don't get me wrong, i am happy for her, but something inside me, aka my heart, starts to ache when i see a guy and a girl walking together... i get depressed... me depressed isn't fun to see or watch or be around even... i get happy, then instantaneously sad, and then happy, then sad... i am one bipolar mess... then my issue kicks in... i get mad, i shake from holding back tears i want to cry and then i reach for it, they are right there a drawer opened away, and i reach for them... 1 isn't good enough, so i do another and another, until it stops, the pain fades, but my heart breaks and tears rule me... my friend told me to put them away away so i can't get them so easily... so far so good, i hope... other than that lg...
um oh yes, i am transfering to NCCC because it is cheaper, and i'll be at home, i can get a job in the billions of places that there are and i'll be at home... but i have a fear, a fear that ppl will think i am a failure... my friends support me and so does my family... they say it is a smart move and i just pray that this is what God wants me to do and that it is all in his hands... deep breaths... tomorrow i have to go and get Houghton to send a transcript to NCCC which should be fun!!! yay!!! and i have to talk to my advisor sometime... woot woot! :( but yeah, i gots to keep my head straight and lean on God, he'll get me through...
Dreams Awaken
Through the mist he cometh forth with no age
Bringing with him mem’ries of old, I’ve changed
He awakens my aged heart and my youth regain
With feelings that once again return within his presence
Whence he cometh forth my heart races, burns, and beats
And tears spring from mine eye in rejoicing
I forgot how to breathe
Whence he cometh forth and steals my soul and heart
I breathe no more for fear I dream to sweetly
His kisses soft as the red, red rose he hands me
But as the truth doth hurt the thorns prick me
And I cry out in pain for my heartbreaks
The pieces fall to the ground and shatter once again
The world spins and I’m lost
Through the mist my love didst come bearing the rose
And through that very mist he leaveth me taking my heart
He fades into the mist no more to return
As I stand here the mem’ries I briefly recall with him flee
My mind knows no comprehension of what I felt
My age returns, my heart’s pieces are together once more
And I finally may breathe for he’s gone
Okay, i wrote this a while ago and i love it... it shows how someone can act when the one they truely love is around... they forget their troubles and they remeber and cherish the joyous times... then he leaves or dies and her burdens return, and her world is real again, she can breathe... sweet sweet love, where art thou???
Until next time...*:.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
The Life We Live
.:*Okay, so my road trip was fun, and i think i still need to catch up on sleep, but w/e... and my roommate got engaged today!!! yay!!!... homecoming weekend isn't to exciting, so i am going to write about the kids in my book called The Life We Live...
David and Elsie are the children of Micah and Larissa Nicholson... Larissa and her husband Micah were both from abusive home lives... today's question how does that effect their children???
David, he is the older of the two and he is quiet... when other kids have grandparents in for grandparent's day at school, he feels insecure, he has no grandparents... his fathers parent's are either in jail, or disowned by the family, and his mother's parents are both dead... for being a ten year old, he dwells on this all, it affects his social life and his group of friends. he doesn't really like to talk to anyone unless they are family... his favorite times are at home sitting with his father playing shoots and ladders...
Elsie, is the youngest of Micah and Larissa's children (she is eight)... she could careless about where her grandparents are, she is a social butterfly and all that matters to her is that her parents love her, and that makes her happy. when grandparents day roles around, she tells kids that they live out of state and they only come up for holidays... so unlike her brother, she is in denial and never mentions her grandparents unless asked, and even then she only responds with they're good...
wow, looks like they both take this pretty harshly, how do the parents deal with this...
They deal with david by trying to get him into sports to get to meet other kids, they send him to camp and nothing seems to work... they have discussed therapy, but they want to see if the pastor can help him first, and not anti- depressants that the therapist will give him... if this fails, they will though...
They deal with elsie in a whole different way... they try to get her to stay at home and not ignore their questions about why she is so happy... any time she is forced to talk to her parents about her emotions, she yawns and says she is tired and wants to go to bed... she completely avoids anything that will force her to talk about her grandparents... she makes stuff up and invents people... this hurts her parents, but she doesn't care, she likes these imaginary ppl and they can't change her...
Now that we have dissected that family... now it is time for Caleb and Betsy Nicholson
Caleb came from the family of abuse, while his wife was the poster child for a perfect life... how does this affect their children?
Bonnie is the oldest of Caleb and Betsy's daughters, she is an artists of sorts, a quiet one like her cousin David, and awkward as any pre- teen (she is twelve), but what is really troubling about this child is that she is always writing about a happy ending she'll never have... she has one set of grandparents, her mother's parents, but she longs to know of her dad's parents, she wants to know what they are like in order to be different from them... she fears that without knowing them, she can never know herself... she wants to talk about it, but doesn't want to hurt her father's feelings...
Marcie is a funny, and obnoxious little kid... (she is nine), she never asks about her grandparents, like Elsie, and frankly she could care less, she has friends and a family she knows loves her... when confronted with the fact that her father's parents aren't in her life, she doesn't fret, she knows where they are, like the rest of them, and from that she knows how not to act... she is very optimistic and out going, she is the most normal, but sometimes those who act normal aren't always... she battles with suicidal urges, and at a young age, this is potential dangerous... her fun times are thinking up ways to die...
Wow, how do the parents handel this...
With Bonnie, they tell her to talk to them, they will answer as honestly as possible, but when she gets afraid to ask, for she doesn't want to offend her father, she just mumbles and says forget it, and she retreats to writing her poetry...she has friends, but they aren't close, so she just keeps her emotions inside and vents on her pillow, which she punches and throws...
With Marcie, they immediatly took her to therapy when a teacher showed her a report she did in class, about different ways she would like to die... there was no yelling screaming, or angriness on Betsy and Caleb's part, but there were tears... she is now on anti- depressants too, which isn't good for a nine year old, so they have to watch her behavior and make sure that everything in life flows good, and everyday, she has to write in a journal to share with the shrink... she also must talk to her parents for a half hour everyday about how she feels... and because of this, Bonnie feels like her problems are insignificant, when really it is all the same thing...
Wow... these families are messed, but that ain't even the half of it... what goes through the parents mind, how are they affected by their pasts???
Larissa... saw her father beat her mother when she was five... her parents didn't know it, until she started reliving it in her dreams, and even then, they ignored it and said she imagined the whole thing... her parent/ mother/ adult figure in her life was a teacher of hers, Mrs. Mary, who knew of every trouble she had... her father a drunk, who beat her mother in fron t of her and her little brother Alexander, aka, little Allie, her mother who supported her father's habbits by working two jobs, worked herself to death, and after she died, Larissa and her brother both got jobs to support themselves, with their father stealing their money on occassion to buy more drinks... he drank to much one night and killed himself and some one else drunk driving... larissa went to college, and Alex moved in with his friends... every now and then she will relive back then, she some times buries herself in her work as to not think about it... she copes, and no suicidal urges... good... she is very into her religion, christianity... she has done well for herself!!!!
Micah... well, he has become a youth pastor, and has created a ministry in church that reaches out to kids in abusive enviroments, and lets them have a safe place to go to if they need some one to talk to... he copes with his past, by helping those children who need his help... he sent his father to jail, where he died, after testifying against him in court for abusing himself and his mother after his brother left for college... he doesn't let the past bother him, he embraces it and it makes him stronger, and he helps Larissa through her tough times of remebering, and is there for her 24/7 as should be... they have grown stronger through all this, and are still in love, but much more so than when they first met...
Caleb... is much like his brother, but he has doubts that he will be a good parent and fears he might regress at some time and become like his father, whom he sent to jail with his brother... through all this, he leans on Betsy and together they face his problems and scars and fears...
Betsy... through all three of them that have gone through this childhood, she is there to listen, to smile, to joke, to complain about her petty issues with humor and most of all to be a friend a confidant... over the kids issues, they all bond and help each other, giving advice, words of encouragement, and bible versus to remember GOD is always there...
No testing has overtaken you that is not common to everyone. GOD is faithful and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the testing, he will also provide the way out, so that you may be able to endure it... 1 Corinthians 10:13
My favorite verse, which will be a theme in this book, and that no matter what troubles they go through, as a family and with GOD, they can over take anything!!!*:.
David and Elsie are the children of Micah and Larissa Nicholson... Larissa and her husband Micah were both from abusive home lives... today's question how does that effect their children???
David, he is the older of the two and he is quiet... when other kids have grandparents in for grandparent's day at school, he feels insecure, he has no grandparents... his fathers parent's are either in jail, or disowned by the family, and his mother's parents are both dead... for being a ten year old, he dwells on this all, it affects his social life and his group of friends. he doesn't really like to talk to anyone unless they are family... his favorite times are at home sitting with his father playing shoots and ladders...
Elsie, is the youngest of Micah and Larissa's children (she is eight)... she could careless about where her grandparents are, she is a social butterfly and all that matters to her is that her parents love her, and that makes her happy. when grandparents day roles around, she tells kids that they live out of state and they only come up for holidays... so unlike her brother, she is in denial and never mentions her grandparents unless asked, and even then she only responds with they're good...
wow, looks like they both take this pretty harshly, how do the parents deal with this...
They deal with david by trying to get him into sports to get to meet other kids, they send him to camp and nothing seems to work... they have discussed therapy, but they want to see if the pastor can help him first, and not anti- depressants that the therapist will give him... if this fails, they will though...
They deal with elsie in a whole different way... they try to get her to stay at home and not ignore their questions about why she is so happy... any time she is forced to talk to her parents about her emotions, she yawns and says she is tired and wants to go to bed... she completely avoids anything that will force her to talk about her grandparents... she makes stuff up and invents people... this hurts her parents, but she doesn't care, she likes these imaginary ppl and they can't change her...
Now that we have dissected that family... now it is time for Caleb and Betsy Nicholson
Caleb came from the family of abuse, while his wife was the poster child for a perfect life... how does this affect their children?
Bonnie is the oldest of Caleb and Betsy's daughters, she is an artists of sorts, a quiet one like her cousin David, and awkward as any pre- teen (she is twelve), but what is really troubling about this child is that she is always writing about a happy ending she'll never have... she has one set of grandparents, her mother's parents, but she longs to know of her dad's parents, she wants to know what they are like in order to be different from them... she fears that without knowing them, she can never know herself... she wants to talk about it, but doesn't want to hurt her father's feelings...
Marcie is a funny, and obnoxious little kid... (she is nine), she never asks about her grandparents, like Elsie, and frankly she could care less, she has friends and a family she knows loves her... when confronted with the fact that her father's parents aren't in her life, she doesn't fret, she knows where they are, like the rest of them, and from that she knows how not to act... she is very optimistic and out going, she is the most normal, but sometimes those who act normal aren't always... she battles with suicidal urges, and at a young age, this is potential dangerous... her fun times are thinking up ways to die...
Wow, how do the parents handel this...
With Bonnie, they tell her to talk to them, they will answer as honestly as possible, but when she gets afraid to ask, for she doesn't want to offend her father, she just mumbles and says forget it, and she retreats to writing her poetry...she has friends, but they aren't close, so she just keeps her emotions inside and vents on her pillow, which she punches and throws...
With Marcie, they immediatly took her to therapy when a teacher showed her a report she did in class, about different ways she would like to die... there was no yelling screaming, or angriness on Betsy and Caleb's part, but there were tears... she is now on anti- depressants too, which isn't good for a nine year old, so they have to watch her behavior and make sure that everything in life flows good, and everyday, she has to write in a journal to share with the shrink... she also must talk to her parents for a half hour everyday about how she feels... and because of this, Bonnie feels like her problems are insignificant, when really it is all the same thing...
Wow... these families are messed, but that ain't even the half of it... what goes through the parents mind, how are they affected by their pasts???
Larissa... saw her father beat her mother when she was five... her parents didn't know it, until she started reliving it in her dreams, and even then, they ignored it and said she imagined the whole thing... her parent/ mother/ adult figure in her life was a teacher of hers, Mrs. Mary, who knew of every trouble she had... her father a drunk, who beat her mother in fron t of her and her little brother Alexander, aka, little Allie, her mother who supported her father's habbits by working two jobs, worked herself to death, and after she died, Larissa and her brother both got jobs to support themselves, with their father stealing their money on occassion to buy more drinks... he drank to much one night and killed himself and some one else drunk driving... larissa went to college, and Alex moved in with his friends... every now and then she will relive back then, she some times buries herself in her work as to not think about it... she copes, and no suicidal urges... good... she is very into her religion, christianity... she has done well for herself!!!!
Micah... well, he has become a youth pastor, and has created a ministry in church that reaches out to kids in abusive enviroments, and lets them have a safe place to go to if they need some one to talk to... he copes with his past, by helping those children who need his help... he sent his father to jail, where he died, after testifying against him in court for abusing himself and his mother after his brother left for college... he doesn't let the past bother him, he embraces it and it makes him stronger, and he helps Larissa through her tough times of remebering, and is there for her 24/7 as should be... they have grown stronger through all this, and are still in love, but much more so than when they first met...
Caleb... is much like his brother, but he has doubts that he will be a good parent and fears he might regress at some time and become like his father, whom he sent to jail with his brother... through all this, he leans on Betsy and together they face his problems and scars and fears...
Betsy... through all three of them that have gone through this childhood, she is there to listen, to smile, to joke, to complain about her petty issues with humor and most of all to be a friend a confidant... over the kids issues, they all bond and help each other, giving advice, words of encouragement, and bible versus to remember GOD is always there...
No testing has overtaken you that is not common to everyone. GOD is faithful and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the testing, he will also provide the way out, so that you may be able to endure it... 1 Corinthians 10:13
My favorite verse, which will be a theme in this book, and that no matter what troubles they go through, as a family and with GOD, they can over take anything!!!*:.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Love...
.:*Okay, so love is pretty much the best thing that could ever hit this world. i t first hoit the world when GOD guided Adam and Eve out of the Garden of Eden, but kept watch over them, and the second time was when JESUS came to earth, GOD in the flesh, as a little helpless baby... there is also love that two people feel when they have found 'their other half' (so cliche, i know)... this should be a good feeling, and you know you are truely in love when you are friends, best of friends and you tell each other everything, no secrets, you are not embarassed to tell this person anything, they make you feel at ease... why would anyone give something like that up... i have never felt this way, and i want to... being in love, all its trials and tribulations too, i want that, i want a relationship with someone where if one of us goes through a shitty ass time, the other will be there to have and to hold forever... i want that, the strong arms to embrace me when i need a feel good hug... you 'girl friends' can only do so much for you, sure they help you with problems and they see you through shitty ass times too, and your like sisters... a boyfriend, or husband, is so much more... i wish i had this, and i envy the people who do, and those who give it up because it is too stressful, are dumb!!!... i have for the past several years, put up this facade that i don't want a boyfriend, they are to distracting, and i have more important things to worry about, when deep down, i long for that connection with someone...
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away... 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
This verse is known by everyone, know why? because they read it at weddings, it is a vow to never second guess the other, to never be jelous of the other, because you each have something to contribute to that relationship... no matter what the other does, you will grow stronger and learn from your mistakes and hopefully never pull that same crap again... be there for each other, to have and to hold...
Music Box Love
I love you
And I’ll never let you go
I’ll cuddle closer to you
When the wind begins to blow
I love you
And I’ll never leave your side
I want you close to me
When I close my eyes
We’ve gone through everything
We went through the pain
My eyes are closed
I long to say
I love you
I only breathe for you
I want you with me always
And even when we’re both grown
I love you
And I’ll always think of you
The memories I will cherish
When you go
You slammed the door
I shut my heart
Our love was always known
But now it’s gone
You walked away
My lies cut to your heart
Now we’re both bleeding
Nothing mends a broken heart
I love you
But we both walked away
The pain too much to bear
I no longer care
That I need you
But I turned away
When we needed love
We looked the other way
I love you
And I’ll never leave your side
I need you
But we looked the other way
This poem, was written awhile ago for my favorite couple on daytime television, Marcie and Michael McBain... she wasn't able to trust Michael because he had lied to her about something, so not know who to turn to or where to go, she ran away with the only person she could trust, a two year old kid named Tommy who was no longer hers. love and trust go hand in hand, but remeber no matter what happens love will keep anyone together and love will conquer all, stick with it even when the horizon can't be seen... *:.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away... 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
This verse is known by everyone, know why? because they read it at weddings, it is a vow to never second guess the other, to never be jelous of the other, because you each have something to contribute to that relationship... no matter what the other does, you will grow stronger and learn from your mistakes and hopefully never pull that same crap again... be there for each other, to have and to hold...
Music Box Love
I love you
And I’ll never let you go
I’ll cuddle closer to you
When the wind begins to blow
I love you
And I’ll never leave your side
I want you close to me
When I close my eyes
We’ve gone through everything
We went through the pain
My eyes are closed
I long to say
I love you
I only breathe for you
I want you with me always
And even when we’re both grown
I love you
And I’ll always think of you
The memories I will cherish
When you go
You slammed the door
I shut my heart
Our love was always known
But now it’s gone
You walked away
My lies cut to your heart
Now we’re both bleeding
Nothing mends a broken heart
I love you
But we both walked away
The pain too much to bear
I no longer care
That I need you
But I turned away
When we needed love
We looked the other way
I love you
And I’ll never leave your side
I need you
But we looked the other way
This poem, was written awhile ago for my favorite couple on daytime television, Marcie and Michael McBain... she wasn't able to trust Michael because he had lied to her about something, so not know who to turn to or where to go, she ran away with the only person she could trust, a two year old kid named Tommy who was no longer hers. love and trust go hand in hand, but remeber no matter what happens love will keep anyone together and love will conquer all, stick with it even when the horizon can't be seen... *:.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Road Trip!!!
.:*Wow, i am sooo excited, tonight i am headed off to vermont with my roommate to get her boyfriend, because the executive producer of National Geographic and the History Channel is going to speak at our college... Some one famous came from Houghton, who'd have thunk it... anyways, and her boyfriend is a film person, and his big dream would be to work with National Geographic... so i think this is good for them, considering they want to get married and stuff, it'll be nice that one of them has a job...
My day today has been sleepy, but i worked because of alumni weekend and argh... lol... i have hw, and i really don't care to do it, but i kinda have to because it is due Monday!!! woot woot... so i just got done talking to one of my nearest and dearest friends Marie, and she is soooo funny, i love her... she wants me to call her while my roommate and i go to Vermont so she can talk to her... lol... i don't think so... :), but w/e... i had show and tell today, and my teddy was the object of my showing and telling... her name is Pink, she is 17 and a few months, almost and antique, lol, she is very not pink anymore, and when i am sad she cheers me up!!!! i love her!!! my dad called today and i talked to him for a few, we chatted about the dumb cars at home that WON'T work, and work and school and a family vaca i am trying to go to with them... over all, i had a good day, and i am super pumped for vermont!!!
A person who plans evil will get a reputation as a troublemaker... Proverbs 24: 8
this bible verse while unrelated to todays awesome events, is just a cool verse... it is the only bible verse that i can understand immidiately by just reading it... it says what it wants to and the point it clear to the reader, i love it... and how true is that?... kids who think of as trouble makers, don't nessesarily know they're being bad, but they are, and they unconsiously plan it... there is some sort of rush every human enjoys when being evil... i personally love the rush, i love being devious, and i love just being human... if GOD didn't send JESUS to die for us, and save our souls, we'd all be damned, but since GOD relized we were going to make mistakes, he gave us a way to always be forgiven... so go ahead make mistakes, be evil and a troublemaker, and in the end, know that you can repent, and try not to be so evil all the time, lol... :)
For You
You’re the rain on my face
The hand on my shoulder
You’re the wind that kisses my cheek
On a lazy day in May
You’re a warm winter’s day
The snow upon the trees
You’re crashing wild waves
And the stones that break their fall
I can still see your smile
And your eyes that shine with love
I can still feel your embrace
And your fingers that dry my tears
I can still hear your courage
And your voice filled full of love
But the one thing I can always touch
Are the memories you leave behind in my heart
You’re the dawn of the morning
The sun lighting the midnight sky
You’re the leaves on the tree
Which fall telling me to move on
You’re the sand on the shore
Washing away my doubts and fears
You’re the music of my heart
The melody catching my soul setting me free*:.
My day today has been sleepy, but i worked because of alumni weekend and argh... lol... i have hw, and i really don't care to do it, but i kinda have to because it is due Monday!!! woot woot... so i just got done talking to one of my nearest and dearest friends Marie, and she is soooo funny, i love her... she wants me to call her while my roommate and i go to Vermont so she can talk to her... lol... i don't think so... :), but w/e... i had show and tell today, and my teddy was the object of my showing and telling... her name is Pink, she is 17 and a few months, almost and antique, lol, she is very not pink anymore, and when i am sad she cheers me up!!!! i love her!!! my dad called today and i talked to him for a few, we chatted about the dumb cars at home that WON'T work, and work and school and a family vaca i am trying to go to with them... over all, i had a good day, and i am super pumped for vermont!!!
A person who plans evil will get a reputation as a troublemaker... Proverbs 24: 8
this bible verse while unrelated to todays awesome events, is just a cool verse... it is the only bible verse that i can understand immidiately by just reading it... it says what it wants to and the point it clear to the reader, i love it... and how true is that?... kids who think of as trouble makers, don't nessesarily know they're being bad, but they are, and they unconsiously plan it... there is some sort of rush every human enjoys when being evil... i personally love the rush, i love being devious, and i love just being human... if GOD didn't send JESUS to die for us, and save our souls, we'd all be damned, but since GOD relized we were going to make mistakes, he gave us a way to always be forgiven... so go ahead make mistakes, be evil and a troublemaker, and in the end, know that you can repent, and try not to be so evil all the time, lol... :)
For You
You’re the rain on my face
The hand on my shoulder
You’re the wind that kisses my cheek
On a lazy day in May
You’re a warm winter’s day
The snow upon the trees
You’re crashing wild waves
And the stones that break their fall
I can still see your smile
And your eyes that shine with love
I can still feel your embrace
And your fingers that dry my tears
I can still hear your courage
And your voice filled full of love
But the one thing I can always touch
Are the memories you leave behind in my heart
You’re the dawn of the morning
The sun lighting the midnight sky
You’re the leaves on the tree
Which fall telling me to move on
You’re the sand on the shore
Washing away my doubts and fears
You’re the music of my heart
The melody catching my soul setting me free*:.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Till There Was You
.:*Okay, so this song has been in my head, and i couldn't remember where i heard it, or where it was from, so TADA, i found it and now i am posting it so i don't forget it again, lol... here it is :)
Till There Was You
There were bells on a hill,
But I never heard them ringing.
No I never heard them at all
Till there was you.
There were birds in the sky,
But I never saw them winging.
No I never saw them at all
Till there was you.
Then there was music, and wonderful roses
They tell me,
in sweet fragrant meadows
of dawn,
and you.
There was love all around,
But I never heard it singing.
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you.*:.
Till There Was You
There were bells on a hill,
But I never heard them ringing.
No I never heard them at all
Till there was you.
There were birds in the sky,
But I never saw them winging.
No I never saw them at all
Till there was you.
Then there was music, and wonderful roses
They tell me,
in sweet fragrant meadows
of dawn,
and you.
There was love all around,
But I never heard it singing.
No I never heard it at all
Till there was you.*:.
Story
.:*Okay, so yesterday, after i finished studying and stuff, by the way, pray that i do well on my Bio test... eek, any how, i started to revise one of my old stories. i hadn't really goten it to go anywhere, so i deleted it and wrote a new begining... i hope this will help in getting my story to have some sort of forward motion.
Like i know what i want my story to be about, it is just getting to the end and making it seem worth while, it is really difficult... so far i like the idea of having the story in two different perspectives, both the wives of the brothers... they are best friends, but the one came from an abusive family, just like her husband, and the other was a poster child for the perfect life... i can get the emotion, that's not a problem, i know the climax, problem, solution, but idk how to make it flow, i guess that would be poor planning on my part.
I have to finish writing my lab report, which is probably more imortant than this story, but it is some what true, and it is very dear to me... i connect with my characters, which is why i never give up on a story, but yet none of them are finished... argh... i need direction...
This is the begining so far...
To feel lucky is to feel blessed, and when I was younger I would have killed to feel either of these. My parents were as juvenile as I should’ve been able to be, and I spent my life caring for my brother and being as good as a role model as I could. My father, a drunken bastard never gave two shits about my brother or me. My brother benefitted the worst from this, never having a decent male figure to look up to. I was able to cope, through friends and one trusted teacher, and I think being a girl, emotions are a part of who we are, but boys can’t show any for fear of torment...
Okay, as for the rest of my life, everything is going good, no new poetry, but i got my last song to work!!! YAY me... and now i have a new rythem and group of chords and i am trying to find old lyrics to go with them. i talked to my one friend today through english class, which is too easy for me... my english class last year was more difficult, so idk why i am even in it... if it wasn't for texting i would've fallen asleep... my friend i talked to is not the same one i talked about yesterday... this friend has her own set of problems, such as getting high and making out with random people, which is so dumb of her... then she goes on to say, well i think i like him... idk... she is probably still high... i haven't heard from BFF Tailand in a while... i am starting to worry, but i know she'll email me soon!!!! My roommate here got into a fight with her mom over the child support money from her father... her mother has been stealing it and using it for her own benefit, which she shouldn't do, it is my roommates money from her father... so yeah... my life is good... i have to keep praying for those around me and hope that someday all will work out for them... May GOD keep them under his wing...
Random Bible Verse... unrelated to my rant...
Don not adorn yourselves outwardly by braiding your hair, and by wearing gold ornaments or fine clothing; rather, let your adornment be of the inner self with the lasting beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in GOD's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4*:.
Like i know what i want my story to be about, it is just getting to the end and making it seem worth while, it is really difficult... so far i like the idea of having the story in two different perspectives, both the wives of the brothers... they are best friends, but the one came from an abusive family, just like her husband, and the other was a poster child for the perfect life... i can get the emotion, that's not a problem, i know the climax, problem, solution, but idk how to make it flow, i guess that would be poor planning on my part.
I have to finish writing my lab report, which is probably more imortant than this story, but it is some what true, and it is very dear to me... i connect with my characters, which is why i never give up on a story, but yet none of them are finished... argh... i need direction...
This is the begining so far...
To feel lucky is to feel blessed, and when I was younger I would have killed to feel either of these. My parents were as juvenile as I should’ve been able to be, and I spent my life caring for my brother and being as good as a role model as I could. My father, a drunken bastard never gave two shits about my brother or me. My brother benefitted the worst from this, never having a decent male figure to look up to. I was able to cope, through friends and one trusted teacher, and I think being a girl, emotions are a part of who we are, but boys can’t show any for fear of torment...
Okay, as for the rest of my life, everything is going good, no new poetry, but i got my last song to work!!! YAY me... and now i have a new rythem and group of chords and i am trying to find old lyrics to go with them. i talked to my one friend today through english class, which is too easy for me... my english class last year was more difficult, so idk why i am even in it... if it wasn't for texting i would've fallen asleep... my friend i talked to is not the same one i talked about yesterday... this friend has her own set of problems, such as getting high and making out with random people, which is so dumb of her... then she goes on to say, well i think i like him... idk... she is probably still high... i haven't heard from BFF Tailand in a while... i am starting to worry, but i know she'll email me soon!!!! My roommate here got into a fight with her mom over the child support money from her father... her mother has been stealing it and using it for her own benefit, which she shouldn't do, it is my roommates money from her father... so yeah... my life is good... i have to keep praying for those around me and hope that someday all will work out for them... May GOD keep them under his wing...
Random Bible Verse... unrelated to my rant...
Don not adorn yourselves outwardly by braiding your hair, and by wearing gold ornaments or fine clothing; rather, let your adornment be of the inner self with the lasting beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in GOD's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4*:.
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